Monday, September 11, 2006


After that sadsack post yesterday I thought I'd post one more time even though I don't have anything to say but HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME. 26 is going to be a great year... it will be challanging to beat 25... but I will.


Sunday, September 10, 2006

I may grow older, but I'll never grow up.

So I know this is an insult to anybody older than me, but I don't want to get any older. I've been fighting off turing 26 for about a year now, and I think -in about two and a half hours -the fight is going to end.

I normally love my birthday. I like the celebration... and being the center of attention! This weekend was great, but now that I actually have to turn a year older, it's not seeming like it'll be fun at all.

My problem is this: I had a huge year. Being 25 resulted in having a competely great year. I had ups and downs, but mostly ups. I'm scared of 26, and of not having the same great year... which I know is completely up to me, and me alone.

But seriously, while I was 25, I was single for the first time in five and a half years. I had some fun flings -and some not so fun flings. I had a crush... well crushes. I lived in a different country. I lived alone for the first time (no roommates or other such things). I ran off a cliff twice (paragliding)- I snorkelled in the ocean. I tried new things that I should have tried years ago like snowboarding, surfing and skateboarding (I know the skateboarding thing didn't work out, but I still did it). I learned that while I did try new things, I'm really not as brave as I thought I was, but it will make me try harder (bungee jumping: some day I will do it). I went to three different countries. I learned more about myself, and learned that I will never stop learning about myself. I met some of the greatest people, and I know that some I will continue to be friends with, and some I will lose touch with, but the point is that they were wonderful people who made my year great. I also reconnected with older friends that I had lost touch with. I learned how to get over the little things, and I learned that I still need to learn how to get over the little things. I may have also learned what I want to do with the rest of my life... but knowing me that will change in a month anyway, so I'll wait to announce my newest life plan. I laughed a lot. I also learned to laugh at the many embarrassing things I did. I came home. -But I'm still looking for where home is.

I just needed to write some of those down. I'm scared for 26 because I am back to real life now, and things are not going to be the same. I am fighting this growing up thing in EVERY WAY possible. So far it's working, but I'm scared that my luck may have run out.


Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Update Time

Well, I guess it's time for an update. Here it is: I'm still jobless, still homeless (but have a place to stay), and getting sadder at the state of my life by the second... but don't worry, I'll figure it all out. It's moments like this, however, that I think back to that moment when I decided I didn't want to teach for another year, and almost regret the decision. Almost. I'm glad I'm home though.

It was my grandfather's 80th birthday on Labour Day, and I was there with all the rest of my family to help in celebrate. That felt pretty good, it seems like I've missed every Burton family celebration since I've graduated high school (the 50th Anniversary, and last year my Grandma's 80th), so it was nice to see everyone. The best part though was seeing how happy my grandpa and grandma were to have there whole family at home. Everyone made it out, all their kids, and all their kid's kids. (And the kid's kid's kids). If only I hadn't been PMSing... I would have been able to handle the question, "Have you found a job yet?" a lot easier. My family is very supportive though, so that's nice.

What else? I'm still jobless. I had an interview to sell shoes at The Bay, but I couldn't force myself to do that. I'd rather work at a restaurant or a coffee shop or something. Actually, to be completely honest, I'm planning to go back to school as soon as possible because obviously an English degree gets a person (me) no where in life.

The good news... My Birthday is coming soon!!!! I love my birthday. Monday is the day, and I'm planning to celebrate all weekend!!

I'm sure it will go better than my last birthday when the cops drove me home (because I couldn't get there on my own!) Cheaper than a cab I guess... that was Korea though, luckily there is no soju here.

Okay. Bye.